06/29/23: I finally finished rereading all the texts to my mom.
I finally finished rereading all the texts between me and my mom. It's more like 75 pages of me sobbing to her about how fucked up my...
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Robin Kastengren
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What is Narcissistic Baiting?
Narcissistic baiting refers to a narcissistic person using "bait" to get an emotional reaction from someone. You can't keep what isn't...
Robin Kastengren
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Religion: Ok, I'll deal with it.
I mentioned the tarot card ladies yesterday, so let's go. I was raised Catholic and to believe all of it and do what they tell me. My mom...
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Listener Request: Resources
I have only one lane here: middle-aged white women with a lifelong history of trauma and abuse who are just discovering their...
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40 Years of Masking Autism
Why did it take so long to arrive at autism? Good question, and for me, it all comes down to masking. I’ve been masking for as long as I...
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The End of the Road
I know that sick people scare people. I know it because they scare me and because I’ve tried my whole life to not make sick people even...
Robin Kastengren
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When I Said Honesty Used to Be Your Thing
I didn't mean for it to be negative. Nobody has been lied to about everything by just about everyone quite like you have. You've always...
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Irish Twins; Irish Curse
We were literally inseparable for 17 years and spent all our extra money on phone minutes for the ten years after that. You know every...
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All I Know About My Dad's Half
My dad’s father, my Hiya, remains a Good Guy in my memories. I really know nothing about him at all other than I thought his face looked...
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Moving Forward
Essays
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Eric’s Final Thoughts
It has been a terrifying five months, I will admit. I know much more now at the ass end of this than I ever thought I did in the 15 years...
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When I was 8, my mom let my dad lie about me.
She let him take away my speech therapy and put me in a class I couldn’t keep up with. It was a good idea since we had to go to school...
Robin Kastengren
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Ray? Could You Close the Door?
Dave Matthews once said, “Keep the Big Door open. Everyone will come around.” Yes, I’m beginning my goodbye letter with a Dave Matthews...
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When I Wanted to Send a Card
to the only person who ever knew what unconditional love means, my mom said she forgot her address and besides, she's in Florida and...
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Quick Note Re: Church Before I Head to the Garden
First, the idea of a stranger doing my laundry is enough to make me want to just buy new clothes instead. Dishes are the first thing I do...
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The Reason They Sent Me Back to School, I'm Guessing
is because the mood stabilizers were coming soon? idk. I've taken mood stabilizers voluntarily twice in my life. Both times with...
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The Point Still Stands
If I was "homicidal," why did they give me Prozac and send me back to school in the morning? The only people I ever hurt with my fists in...
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Oh shit, one more
In person therapy at 1 to help with the terror of having to relive the next 20 years in my brain like I have the last 20. And Eric is a...
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And
It's times like this that I miss the mom I pretended I had the most and the only reason I can even breathe in my chair at 11:03 am on...
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